I seriously cannot stand the human race. Just when I feel that there is some chance that humanity isn't all bad, something happens to change my mind. Why do things always go wrong? To whoever posted rude comments on our blogs, you are an idiotic, putrid excuse for a human being. How DARE you say such things about us? Stop pretending you're so amazing and take the sharp stick out of your ass. It's not healthy. I don't see why someone would feel the need to post such awful things on someone's blog. Especially if they're just doing something they love. "Go outside and play"? You're on the computer too, idiot, so don't try to make it seem like being on the computer makes us lesser than you. I now know who did this. and that's what makes me even more angry. You all should be ashamed. ASHAMED. I can't even express to you how much I am seething with anger towards you. I no longer wish to fix things. You took it too far. I can't stand people who feel the need to cut down people when they're trying to do something they love and be happy. What's the point? Why is humanity such a wreck? Why are we all so awful? Can't we all just get along? I recently had a quite lengthy argument with someone I used to be friends with. It was so ugly. I hated it and it made me tense and angry for about three days, and it is still continuing. I'm tired of awful people saying awful things. Personal attacks are rude and uncalled for. STOP IT. I'm sorry if this offended anyone, but it is the truth about how I feel. The human race is pathetic and doesn't deserve to be on this earth at all. There are those few people who makes it okay, but then awful things happen to those few good, purely good, human beings. Why is it that the good always die so undeserving and premature deaths? It makes me so angry and it hurts me so badly. I hate it. I hate this world. I wish people would stop fighting I wish wars would stop and people of all race and religion could stand hand-in-hand together without problems. The world would be in peace and peace is all I've ever wanted for this world, but it doesn't look like that is ever going to happen because humans SUCK. I'm finished with this rant. Now you all know how I feel. To you good people out there, Good on you. You're what keeps my faith in the human race. You deserve a cookie and a high-five or something...thanks. Angrily, Elodii
So I'm at school right now. I took a day off yesterday to gather my wits and compose some courage to face school and try to not focus on the death of Georgie. BUT. I'm back...unfortunately. I mean...it's an "A" day today, which means all my easy, fun classes, but it's still school. I'm actually in art class at the moment...but I have nothing to do. I'm finished with my project and we're critiquing in about ten minutes, so I can't start anything new...pity. I wanted to finish my painting I started. I had to do a project in mental health this morning where I present a song that means something important to me. I chose the song "Listen to your heart", by DHT. I remember one time I was upset about something and began crying and georgie was there. we sat on the trampoline and she just held me and sang to me as I cried. Ever since then, the song has always reminded me of her, but recently, it's meant more to me than any other song because that is one of a few very fond memories I hold of my friend. I hadn't talked to her in so long and I'm still kind of...really...sad. But I'm trying my best to just forget. just...let go. But anyway, yeah so I presented the song and, surprisingly, didn't cry during it. I was expecting to. glad I didn't. I think we're dissecting rats today in biology...I hope that it doesn't bother me. I've never dissected a mammal before and I used to have pet rats so I hope I'm ok. I'm hungry. I had a bagel this morning...well half of one. It was gross, so I didn't finish it. Lunch is next our so, I'm in luck! I donno what I want to eat today...I always get the same thing and it's getting old. I'm also cold.well I'm only rambling now, sooooo....I'm going to bid tee adieu, until I next post.
This past Saturday, my dear friend Georgie passed away. I don't know why this happened. it just did. She died doing what she loved best, which was riding horses. she apparently fell and hit her head on hard ground. I'm absolutely devastated. I hadn't talked to her in quite some time, and now I really regret it because now I'll never talk to her again. she's gone forever, and I still am having a hard time accepting this fact. Her funeral was today. I broke down crying when I saw her. She looked like a porcelain doll, fragile and beautiful. I had the chance to say a few words, and I'm really glad I did. I needed some closure, for before the funeral, I had none whatever. She just was here and gone in a flash and it all happened so quickly. It makes me realize that I need to start living every day like it's my last, because it very well could be. She was only sixteen. That just isn't fair. she had hardly lived yet. The only thing that's letting me keep my wits about me is that she died doing something she was so passionate about. Her whole life revolved around horses--she loved them dearly. I know I'll never see her again, but I hope that she's watching over me and I know she'll always remain special to me and I'll always hold her dearly in my heart. She was always such a wonderful friend when I needed her and I feel like I didn't appreciate her enough while she was still here. I'm going to miss her so much. I don't want to go to school tomorrow and I hope my Father doesn't make me. I'm still in a daze, even though I found out about her death on Sunday night. I wish I would have called her when I thought about it. I wish I had been able to say goodbye...Rest in peace Georgie. You'll always be in my heart. <3
